I Heart Guernsey

Guernsey proved to be the island i imagined it to be.. it is a tranquil and safe haven ideal for families and retired couples who wants to enjoy the remaining days of their lives.. nonetheless, it is also a pragmatic venture for filipino nurses and accountants alike.. i was surprised to discover how "accountancy" is the new "nursing" in a sense that there is a greater demand of accountants here compared to nurses.. plus the fact that they get paid more than we do.. the last time i've heard.. they were getting a starting salary of £35000 per annum.. it was a far cry from my humble salary of £25000.. *sigh*

St. Peter's port marina was breathtaking. It recaptures the pulchritude of the archaic structures without spoiling the spectacle of the seaside vista. It rejuvenated my lowly spirit after weeks and months of suffering in utter state of melancholy and downheartedness. Every sight was a welcome change to the normal panorama of the daily London life.

Nonetheless, much more than this, I needed Guernsey for something else. I seeked for thrill, adventure, and the "adrenaline rush". It was my very own time to enjoy myself without any possible inclination of other people's criticisms... I grew tired of it. For once, it was my alone time. But i got more than I bargained for.

I crashed. I fell. I lost control. I suffered. I got into a cycle accident. Im still healing the wounds. The pathetic details will be on the next post...

quis in a nomen

ive been thinking of starting a blog for the longest time.. somewhere i could freely express myself without inhibitions.. my life is a decussate impulse of "helter-skelter" channels.. its complexity confounds me from every angle..

i never thought it would end up this way.. i grew up watching drama series of overseas Filipino workers struggling to juggle their finances, family life and complicated relationships that leads them to a backdrop of infinite possibilities of success and failures.. nonetheless, i dreamt to be one of them.. but now that i am in this position, im thinking twice..

it has never been an easy journey.. in fact, its the hardest its been from the entirety of my existence.. hopefully, i could make the most of this "helter-skelter" disposition.. its humbling to know that after all the pains and trials and happiness, in the end, it all boils down to one person -- ME... and im all alone in this journey now..

my name is neo roque.. friend and foe.. lover and cheater.. this is my blog..